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empatheias!
empatheias!
spirialink) wrote2015-04-26 07:50 pm
empatheias!
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...But later. He can't get sidetracked.]
That's what I don't understand, Emizel. If that's the case, then why does being alone sound any better to you?
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[....Although, it still seemed pointless to try. Emizel knew that he was and always will be alone, at this rate. This conversation was proof how strikingly unusual he was to everyone else in this world. No one could possibly relate to him. That's what made him extra alone.]
All...you people do is tell me that I'm wrong. My feelings are wrong. My reasoning is wrong. Sometimes even my own being is plain wrong. And you somehow don't think I already am alone?!
[He continued to lash Kor with words. But then it suddenly turned into desperate pleading towards... well, anyone that would actually listen to him. It's very clear that he was still crying.]
I want there to be others that can stay with me. Just once. N-not just for one year but like a few hundred, thousand years like normal. Just so I can stop being scared about them disappearing, or getting too old, o-or anything like that. I can just take my time for once. I don't want to worry about any of those things anymore and then I never have to be lonely again.
...But it's never going to happen. It won't and likely never will.
[He spent time trying to get more of the gut-wrenching, frustratingly painful grief he had been building for a good while now out. It won't satisfy all of it, but it was about time some of it finally burst.]
[Also when Emizel finally came back, he was almost uncharacteristically cold.]
...B-but oh, go ahead and tell me how you don't understand that either. I'm waiting to hear what I did wrong this time. Say it right in my face, I dare you!
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...That is, until that last thing Emizel says comes out. Immediately, there's a loud SNAP! that comes across the feed. No, to call it a snap would be an understatement, because what it sounds like is more akin to a thunderclap, a lightning bolt striking the plains, as Kor's emotions reach a boiling point here.]
Dammit Emizel! Of course I don't understand! I don't understand how you can be so selfish about this! You think you're the only one affected by this?! [There's a brief pause, and when he comes back, his voice is shaky, mired by angry tears.] You make it sound like we don't want to be there for you! Do you think we don't wish we could all live forever and be there for our friends?! If it was up to me, I'd never leave any of my friends behind... I don't want any of them to feel lonely! I don't want any of them to have to feel like Creed did!
[Another pause, as he stops to try and swallow back his anger and sadness.] S-so yeah... I don't understand... Even after you told me all that, it doesn't make any sense to me. Your Spiria craves love and friendship, even though losing it hurts, Emizel! So I don't understand why you want to just shove everyone away and hurt yourself even more!
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[Emizel had almost considered leaving. But you know? He kind of does not care anymore.]
...Then I doubt you would understand. I don't expect some human would know anyway.
[It seems even here, humans are not too bright, as they are expendable.]
You can't be there for me. Humans have to die eventually. And then their souls need to wiped clean so that they can live and die all over again.
I don't...like making human friends anymore. And I especially don't want to think what it'll be like when I have to take their souls away.